Trying to keep busy

Trying not to freak out
Trying not to worry
Trying to be calm
Trying to be occupied all of the time
Trying be make everyone laugh
Trying to cheer myself too
Trying to listen to so many things so that my mind won't wander off on it's own to never land
Trying hard not to miss you.

And....... Failing miserably.
With a capital F.

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